Castles made of sand…

I don’t care what you say… Christmas music should not be played BEFORE Thanksgiving. Much less at the START of November. I don’t think I could change the station fast enough when I turned on my radio this morning to hear it playing. And unfortunately they’re playing it all weekend for the next few weekends. Very uncool.

Nothing new… life goes on. But life is good.

We all yearn to escape from reality… even more than just in our dreams.

As we grow up, we are limited by rules enforced by our parents. We strive to grow older, to be freed from these rules. And upon having done so, becoming an adult, we wish to be a kid again.

On a similar note to What have I learned? Part 1, I wrote about what I learned in 2005 while living in Florida. Most of these kind of relate to living on my own, as 2005 was the first time. Unlike the last list, most of these don’t relate to work.

What have a learned from living on my own here in Florida?

==== Spring 2005 ====
I’ve learned that bills stink a lot. I’ve learned that I don’t need things that I want. I’ve learned there is more to life than just working (just need to figure out what that is). I’ve learned that sources of motivation change quickly while working. I’ve concluded yet again that college is expensive. I’ve learned that its different living on my own versus at college and home; especially when I’m 500 miles from the place I still call home.

I’ve learned that I work too hard. I’ve learned to live with the Florida weather. I’ve learned that lots of little kids in an apartment complex is very annoying and brings strange desires to rip out their vocal cords (just kidding, from this I’ve learned why someone has invented ear plugs). I’ve learned that tv dinners are “decent” substitutes for real food.

I’ve learned the value of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. I’ve learned that exercise can wake you up decently. I’ve learned that 2 cups of coffee can do wonders. I’ve learned that Walmart has some good prices. I’ve learned to charish memories of the past. I’ve learned that the TV is good for something other then starting a vegetative state in humans. I’ve learned that I can eat lots of snacks and still be hungry. I’ve learned the value of sunscreen (several times infact). Those kids… grr. I’ve learned that being called Mr. and Sir makes me feel old. What happened to being called a kid?

==== Fall 2005 ====
I’ve learned not to play music really loud with bass in the morning which can piss off your neighbors, but I wasn’t the one playing the music. I’ve learned that occasionally some people like to cause a ruckis between 2 and 3 am, and even the police know this too. I’ve learned that I like to take long walks on the beach to relax. I’ve learned what it means to miss someone, to be lonely. I’ve learned that people like to litter public beaches. I’ve learned that the beach changes a lot in just a little bit of time, yet its still a beach.

I’ve been getting ready to return to Florida for the summer, and this might be more stressful than even exams. There’s just been so much for me to do. Anyhow, I’ll be there until August 18th. School starts again on the 22nd. This might be the last you hear of me until August.

In other news, today I stopped at a church parking lot to make a call on my cell. You know, doing something good like not being distracted while driving. I was only there for like 5 minutes before their “security” comes by and tells me I’m trespassing on private property. While that could be understandable in most situations, there isn’t a private property sign posted, not to mention its a church; so now I think they’re jerks.

Ugh. Being sick + being stressed out (possibly due to the previous item) + taking exams = tons of not fun. I’m exhausted.

My first exam took all of 3 hours. As unhealthy as that might sound, I think I did alright on it. I didn’t feel like “I don’t know any of that… or that… or that… even that.” That out of the way, I’m off to studying for the next one, which is tonight.

I’m like really excited about this weekend. There are a few things that I’m also worried about. I not too thrilled about the 5 or so hour drive. I’m also no too thrilled that I have two project due on monday. I finished one of them today, so YAY. But the other could take vast amounts of time, which I don’t particularly have if I’m gone all weekend.

Oh well. Thats all thats on my mind.

No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels all right
You don’t know what it’s like
To be like me

Simple Plan - Welcome to My Life

Edit: I am a fan of constructive criticism.

It seems as though, at least to one person, that I’m always negative or down about something. Life has its ups and downs, but I don’t think its cause I have more downs. It’s just when I’m down I’m more willing to express that in odd ways. I don’t often express joy or happiness, and I’m not sure why that is.

I know I’m blessed with many things. Some of those blessings have bestowed on me some heavy burdens, and thats tough. Don’t be overly concerned that I’m expressing displeasure in those burdens, I’ll survive and maybe I’ll be stronger cause of it. Life is a little more than simple these days, eh?

Staying up all night for Relay for Life, while as much fun as it was, threw off my sleep cycle. So, here I sit, staring at my monitor. My mind is wondering, thoughts racing through my head. I wished they’d stop.

My life is a castle made of sand, and its washing away.